The words. They’re gone.
Those beautiful words that allow me to say with my fingers what I can’t say with my mouth.
The writing process. At a standstill.
I start and stop.
My fingers glide over the keys, yet fail to form the right combinations to make words.
I’m happy. Life is good. Very busy. Kids are awesome.
But I can’t describe any of this.
The words have escaped me.
I start a thought, and stop it again.
I think of something to write about and then think it’s too boring or cheesy or has been already covered or who would even care.
I have so much to say, yet I can’t seem to say it. I’ve had this problem before, when I wrote I Can’t Find The Words, but that time it was for a different reason.
Do I keep blogging? Find something else to do with my time? Is this part of the natural rhythm of blogging that all long-term bloggers experience? Do I give it up or just take a break?
Or do I go back to the basics and start over…blogging as I did in the beginning – blogging just for me and not for numbers or money or to become the next Bloggess or Scary Mommy (both of whom I totally adore and if you don’t read them go check them out now because they are FUNNY!)? Side note: I have no desire, and probably lack the drive and energy, to become a “BIG” blogger.
One of my best blogging friends Tonya over at Letters for Lucas tagged me in a recent post about the writing process and her timing couldn’t be better. I’ve been wanting to write about not being able to write for awhile now, and I think Tonya’s tagging me is really making me think about writing in order to complete this post about writing. Thank you Tonya, I needed this.
So here it is. My writing process…or what’s left of it.
My Writing Process
1. What am I working on?
Well, nothing in particular. I have 60+ posts in draft that I want to write or have written and decided not to hit “Publish” on. In the last week, I’ve been working on a couple of posts in my head, too. You’ll see those soon, as they are almost done. In my head. The trick will be to see if I can actually write them down.
2. How does my writing differ from other’s of it’s genre?
I don’t consider myself a writer. I just write down my thoughts and ideas and experiences. Even when I do sponsored posts or reviews, I always try to weave a story into it…I don’t try to, I do. Because why in the heck else would someone want to read about a brand or product they aren’t interested in? Why would I want to write about it? So I only except those kinds of opportunities that fit into my “real” everyday life.
And I think almost everybody that I’ve met through blogging has told me that when they meet me in real life, I sound exactly the same way I do on my blog when I write. I don’t think there’s a bigger compliment than that.
3. Why do I write what I do?
I don’t know anymore. I write a journal of my children’s daily lives that I want them to have forever. I write because after I started blogging I realized that I LOVE to write and that I need to do it for me. I have been writing more about me lately and less about the kids. Why? Because my blog is evolving as my life changes. The question for me is do I want to keep writing and sharing it all publicly?
4. How does my writing process work?
My writing process is messy, which is why I love this question. I’ve actually written about this before when I wrote Anatomy of a Blog Post.
Usually, I sit down and write. It takes, a half hour or so – maybe an hour – to get it done because most of the time it’s already done in my head. But right now the.words.aren’t.coming.like.they.used.to. So I sit down to write, and….nothing. Right now, there is no writing process, only hope that it will come back to me.