I am beyond excited today, because Jill from SCARY MOMMY is here sharing a Monster Mommy Moment with us!
No idea what a Monster Mommy Moment is? You can read all about how my weekly feature came to be here.
Jill and I chat occasionally on Twitter, and I was lucky enough to guest post at her place with one of my favorite posts about being a mom of 3 really young kids titled Just Doing It (if you didn’t read it, you should…it’s pretty funny!). Jill is an extremely talented and successful writer and blogger, and when I asked her if she would guest post and she said yes, I was shocked and very grateful!
The post she’s sharing was originally published on her site last year, but she thought it fit the bill so well she asked if she could use it here too. And it is a perfect Monster Mommy Moment as you’ll see.
So grab a cup of coffee and a donut, ahem, I mean a low-fat muffin, or depending on the time of the day maybe some wine and chocolate, and sit back and enjoy Jill’s Monster Mommy Moment!
I just yelled at my son.
I yelled at him in a way meant to scare him, meant to shake him to the core.
I yelled at him in a way that I only recall being yelled at once– it was that unforgettable.
I yelled at him out of frustration and anger and pure desperation.
I yelled in a way that if I witnessed it as an outsider, I would be unable not to judge– what kind of mother yells at her offspring like that?
I yelled in a way that I never want to again.
Because, now, he is drifting to sleep and the thought of my voice echoing in his head is tearing me apart.
And I wonder what kind of mother I am, to yell like that at the child I love with all of my being.
Tonight, it wasn’t the one I want to be.
Jill, unfortunately we’ve all been there. But knowing that we aren’t alone or the only moms to ever do something like this is exactly why we share our Monster Mommy Moments.
And now you all see why I I’m such a fan of Jill’s. She’s honest, and not afraid to share thoughts and feelings that some parents are too embarrassed or ashamed to admit. She’s not afraid to put herself out there in a less-than-perfect light – and that’s why I am so glad that she has shared one of her Monster Mommy Moments with us.
Thank you Jill, for reminding us that we are all sharing the same experiences and that we’re all in this together and that we can learn from each other’s mistakes experiences.
Now go swing by SCARY MOMMY and say hello to Jill, and if you’re new there make sure to tell her that I sent you. I know you’ll really enjoy her blog!