We all know how hard it is to end a friendship, especially one that has been strong for a long time. We grow apart, we change, we have different needs and wants sometimes, and that’s all part of life. I understand this, I get it…but it’s still so hard and sad to just cut such a big part of your life completely out.
I want to share a letter I recently wrote…I think that it needed to be written. I just wasn’t ready for our friendship to end so abruptly; without warning. So if I sound sad and maybe even hostile, it’s because I’m hurt.
My Dearest Friend,
I know that you know how much you mean to me. I probably tell you more than I tell anybody else. I’m always honest about how much I love and respect you…how much better my life is because you are part of it. But I feel like you’ve been pushing me away without even considering my feelings. I know we’ve grown apart in the last few months – I’ve been seeing less and less of you. But it’s so hard to let go of this friendship.
You were always there for me. You were the one I looked forward to seeing everyday. You knew everything about me, and understood how much I needed you. On the days when the kids were pushing me over me line of sanity, you’d step in and help out. I will never be able to thank you enough for all that you’ve given me…both support and time to myself when I needed it.
But a few months ago, you stopped coming around as often. Some days I’d see you and express how grateful I was that you were back. Other days you’d blow me off like I wasn’t important. Even though you knew how much I needed you, you shunned me. I prayed that we could fix our relationship, that things could go back to the way they were. It was obvious you didn’t feel the same, and I’m sorry for that.
I’ll never forget you, not ever. I know there will still be days when I need your comfort and security and you’re not going to be here. I’ll long for you. I might even cry for the loss of you. You were such an amazing part of my life, and not a part I want to let go of.
If things can change…if there’s anything I can do, please say it. Tell me. I’ll do anything. Your leaving was not a Christmas present I wanted to find under the tree. Couldn’t you have at least waited for the New Year so we could celebrate our family and friendship? I just needed you a little longer to get me through the holidays. I hate that you’re leaving me, and I will miss you beyond words. My heart is hurting, and I wish you would fix it.
Second Nap of the Day, I will always, ALWAYS hold a special place in my heart for you. You, dear friend, will be missed more than I will ever be able to express. Please share these words with First Nap of the Day. I can’t even think of what it will be like to lose it, too.
Did I have you fooled? Or did you see where this was going? Either way, I hope you enjoyed it…it sure was fun to write! And every, single, solitary word is the honest to God truth!
And so it goes…